Fears

 

Yesterday, when I got the notice which indirectly stated that I'm an extra, unwanted, and unrequired member here............. A few thoughts popped up in my mind. I'm putting them in black and white with the hope that everything will be well eventually. I wish it not to be adieu but, to be the beginning of a new realm.

Apprehensions and consternations

Was that what I wished for?

Happiness was what I sought...

But all of a sudden

That all seems afar

In a short span, the relations were made

But now, all seems in limbo

All adjustments now took a shade

Now its time to go

Ripples of feeling alienated at a known place

I was thrilled with the people and space

Now bearing the brunt of

A few slip-ups made in a haze

Shell-shocked and in a state of quandary

Maybe the vacancies available in sundry

Still afraid of what's in my fate

Once more life is a clean slate

I pray to God for courage

To start things anew

Comfortability will be obtained,

Maybe in days but few

Dithering at the state of new adjustment

Its time to initiate new interactions

Antsy of existing disability

Heed of my vulnerability

Well, it's not a choice but dictatorship

Uttering curses under God's flagship

A humanitarian approach or treatment with a whip

Now left everything to God and his mastership.

Blackboard

Black-board

A black-board is a teacher's ally
Having the companionship of a duster and chalk
One to erase all that fills it
And other to fill it anon

A black-board is an artists canvass
A habitue of institute's parties and celebrations
Get adorned by novel phrases and sayings
And enlighten all the generations

An innocent's heart is an empty blackboard
I have the yen that no one writes on it
As the time elapses away eventually
Can be easily wiped off, all that's written on it.

Perhaps, life was like a black-board
Never trailing behind
Magnanimous to wipe off all the mistakes
Even something splendid gets abraded with time

Perhaps, life was a new blackboard
Capacious to occupying anything from history to science
Adorning itself with white lines
Contended with its own boundary lines







 

 

First day in the school

 

My School

Wreathed in the halo of fears

A lot of apprehensions, presumptions, and misconceptions

Heart packed with enthusiasm and embarrassment

I traversed the path to the school

Yes, it was my first day in the school

Yes, it was a government school.

Dispirited by the discomfort of my disability

Awkwardness in gait but sure of my abilities

Hopes abound with the confidence of stability

I traversed the path to the school

Yes, it was my first day in the school

Yes, it was a government school.

Anticipation was rightful - a nondescript building needs a groom

The goddess of learning resided in the antiquated classrooms

A vast ground with no guardroom

Cold and dark staffroom

Yes, it was my first day in the school

Yes, it was a government school.

Huge Ground with scattered shales and macadam 

Large enough to hamper my ambulation

Piercing deep, paining and leading to frustration

Perturburating confidence and enhancing palpitation

Yes, it was my first day in the school

Yes, it was a government school

I continued as I knew to get benefit from something

It was unknown to me as I knew about it nothing

Beyond the sight, perhaps my status was burnishing

Going to give me pleasure, though it was now anguishing

Thoughts of my first day in the school

Yes, it was a government school

The unexceptional building rested in a pristine environment

The exceptional staff were always at its upliftment

Bon homie headmaster and a congenial department

Heaved sigh to be in this school

Yes, it was my first day in the school

Yes, it was a government school.

A figment of thought stirred my realization

For, both- I, and the school needed some renovation

Me at the mercy of  God and the school at the administration

Scholars radiated conviviality, away from the lull, made my life full

Yes, it was my first day in the school

Yes, it was a government school.